Things like...
- Should I have chosen a different career?
- What would I do differently if I could re-live those hard moments in life?
The list could go on and on and I am sure that we all think like this at times, it just seems that the past year I constantly worry about my boys, I feel insecure in life and I cannot settle with my career choice. I cannot concentrate on every day tasks and tend to just give up and crave quiet and hearing the clock ticking in my living room.
I said to my boss the other day during my appraisal that unless you suffer from depression and anxiety, people have no idea. I hope it is just a phase that I am going through and hope that it betters itself and I can relax and enjoy my life. It does help talking about anxieties and it does help for me to have 'time out' at home, quiet and just laying down, crafting or having a nap.
So that is enough of that and it is time to talk about forthcoming plans. I think the first plan is to continue with my crafts and not lose interest in them. I have knitted a lot of socks for Christmas gifts this year and nearly all of them I have knitted on the bus to and from work as well at home.
I have started a crochet scrap blanket with 2 strands of double knit held together, I am enjoying that but can only crochet for around an hour at a time and then I have to put it down because it causes my right shoulder and thumb to hurt.
I have almost finished Christmas present shopping which is a big worry off my mind and all I have to really worry about is how to get one of the presents to my youngest son.
Frank has bought me a lot of sock yarn over the past few months and I intend to keep making socks and hopefully having some leftovers. I do have quite a lot of leftovers and am trying to rack my brain to think of what to do with them as a design instead of just another sock blanket.
Frank wants to get the Christmas tree out this year so I suppose I have to, I think he wants it more for the Grandkids to see when they visit weekends so we will be doing that this weekend.
So my plans are not too intense for the next few weeks, I do not plan that far in front for anything really because of my insecurities which stops you from looking forward to things so if any scenarios do pop their ugly head, it would be easier to copy. Hope that makes sense, it does to me now!
I am now off to rest a bit and watch a podcast with a cup of tea and my knitting. Have a lovely weekend.
