Friday, 16 October 2009

Hormonal wingging

Yep, I hate everything when the decorators are in!!!! I have had a week of chest infection, viral infection, bored house husband moaning, no money to spend, a 6 day working week for me which stops me from enjoying the only day I get off cause I am too damned tired to bother with anything. My husband started smoking again (hate hate hate hate) and now he has decided to use a drug prescribed by the doctor to take away the flavour of cigerettes!!

I have had 2 days sick from work cause the stupid locum doctor prescribed me antibiotics (sorry, he is not stupid, I was for taking them) that caused an allergic reaction so I thought sod it, how am I going to get rid of this infection if I dont stay away from work for a few days. So what did I do, crochet 3 more flipping christmas stockings. Thats 17 made so far, just got another 23 to do. Then while I was watching NCIS which I am totally hooked on, I knitted myelf a beret in a lovely salmon pink colour in 'sirdar bigga wool' only to find it was a little too small for my head! Still, started another one straight after and have got that to look forward to tomorrow. That is, once I have got up at 5am for work and then not getting home till 1.30pm. But it makes up a little for the two days money I have lost.

I have spent the last few weeks wondering a lot about what my life would be like if I had not made the choices I have so far in my 41 years of living! Does anybody else do that? My kids dont need me anymore, both too interested in their girlfriends so it is rare that we all sit down for a meal together. I miss all of that! We should have moved away years ago! We should have been stronger! Life has got much more difficult now that the routine of being a needed Mum is fading, so what happens next aye! I know one thing is for sure, I am not going to sit about waiting for things to happen in my life!!

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